sabotabby: (books!)
I continue to spend a non-zero amount of time arguing with AI techbros, and soft-AI supporters ("I use ChatGPT to polish up my writing" "I have my own offline LLM" "We need to have guardrails and learn how to incorporate it responsibly into education"), because yours truly is an internet masochist who regularly engages in online self-harm. Nah, actually because I think the "we should abolish it altogether" position is woefully absent in the discourse. It's possible that LLMs could go the way of NFTs (a punchline that's already getting dated) or crypto (also a punchline but with a very narrow use case for the worst people you've ever met), but only if we open the Overton Window to allow an abolitionist perspective to be let loose into the mainstream.

No one asked for this. No one likes it. No one wants it. It will make your life more annoying, not less.

The second least justifiable case* for the broad grouping of technologies called AI** is creative work—writing and art. It's already led to the mass firing of journalists, which, granted, was already happening because of capitalist consolidation. You will notice that the quality or availability of journalism has not improved! Hilariously, the economic case for this is also terrible, in that artists, writers, journalists, actors and voice actors, filmmakers, and animators already make no fucking money, and a request from an under-$200/month subscriber actually costs the companies money.*** (Is it moral to use ChatGPT to drive OpenAI out of business? Discuss.) Replacing or drowning out creative work with AI slop makes no one money and creates worse things that you have to wade through to find things made by humans.

computerspiteful
Probable source.

And yet, there are a certain number of AI "artists" or "prompt engineers" who insist that I should take their little computer pictures seriously as if it was real art. Buddy, I do not take my pictures seriously and I drew them myself. They liken what they do to collage, or sometimes Pop Art. Unfortunately for them I studied Art History and they usually shut up real quick when I tell them that my prerequisite for discussing it is them reading the entire judgment in the Warhol Estate v. Goldsmith case.

(Incidentally, I disagree with the judgment, and the last people who should be defining fair use are the ghouls of the US Supreme Court. But it's an interesting case, and one that to my non-legal mind conclusively shows that all AI "art" is in violation of US copyright law.)

My moral argument against LLMs is:
1. The catastrophic environmental cost.
2. The intellectual property theft.
3. The economic consequences of job loss.
4. The world doesn't need more shitty art.

If these people knew anything about art at all, which they don't, they might bring up fanfic rather than Pop Art. After all, we're talking about transformative work, specifically of creative intellectual property. It got me thinking, in a tangential comment on one of [personal profile] princessofgeeks 's posts, about how fanfic is the bright mirror of AI.

Because I think transformative work is good, actually. It's the main way we've had, for the entire history of humanity, to engage with story and art. The idea of a work being the sole property, for the purpose of sole profit, of the artist who created it is relatively new, and has to do with economic conditions far more than it has to do with an accurate description of the creative process.

Hence, I would pose the question: What is the difference between a fanfic of a piece of intellectual property (you can insert your own fandom here, the way [REDACTED] inserts their [REDACTED] in [REDACTED]'s [REDACTED])? After all, you are taking a thing that belongs to some other creator and making your own thing out of it.

This is where having a moral framework comes in handy.

1. Is there an environmental cost? No more than any regular activity you'd do on a computer. The energy difference between me writing this post, or my own books, and someone posting smut to AO3 is nonexistent. We all need to cut our energy use down but let's ground the private jets first, y'know?

2. Is it intellectual property theft? I would argue no, actually, and while this has been litigated a few times, people don't get sued for writing fanfic as a general rule. It's not, morally speaking, for the same reason that collage is not. No one is claiming that Hannah Höch photographed all of those magazine images she put in her collages; you are very obviously seeing found work that is repurposed, with intent, to create new meanings. Fanfic is the same—it can't exist without the acknowledgment of the authorship of the original canon. If the original canon suddenly disappeared, or was overshadowed by the fanfic, the meaning would be lost. The purpose of fanfic is to honour the original work, or subvert it, or deconstruct it; it is never to erase it.

3. It's the economic aspect that I find most interesting. Companies like OpenAI speak openly (hah) about crushing entire industries in order to somehow extract profit. Although, again, why they plan to do that with the arts, which are famously unprofitable, is beyond me. Blood from a stone. Fanfic, however, is a gift economy. That's why I call it a bright mirror. Paying for it would seem gauche; when fanwriters have tried to charge for their work, they're soundly mocked by a community of accidental anarchists.

In fact, this is a reason why fanfic writers aren't sued. Fanfic and fanart inevitably creates more income for the original creator. How many times have I checked out some show because someone has drawn an incredibly pretty, incredibly filthy illustration of the characters? A non-zero amount of times, I can tell you. If you ever write fanfic of my work I will love you forever.

4. Well, one can argue that a lot of fanfic is shitty. But because it's published, most of the time, through a parallel ecosystem, you don't actually have to wade through whatever the modern-day equivalent of My Immortal is to find an actual book. So the shitty stuff harms no one. Maybe the calculus shifts a bit with the publication of, say, Ali Hazelwood's stuff, but that's not my genre so I don't care.

Artistically, fanfic is communal and process-oriented, whereas AI slop is individualist and product-oriented. I can probably still go to AO3 and find something, within one or two clicks, that floats my boat. (Like I'd do that. I am a lazy asshole. I'd ask one of you, and you'd give me a recommendation.) To find something in the sea of slop that has any kind of artistic merit is impossible. Even if it did exist, and it doesn't, it'd be impossible to find. During one argument I had with an AI fanboy, he claimed to have rendered 100 images in the time it took for me to destroy his argument.† With one person creating that volume, how can anyone find anything?

It has never occurred to any of these people to turn to fanfic or fanart to improve on their skills. This is because they are genuinely uninterested in creative work. They don't want to be artists or writers; they want to claw themselves a little higher on the pyramid scheme, not understanding that they're the product no matter how hard they try.

It's actually because fanfic writers and fan artists exist that I have hope that the scourge of slop can be defeated. Creativity is so innate that it can thrive even in the absence of a profit motive, and for all its flaws, AO3 is an example of elegant, usable website architecture with safeguards built in against monetization. Even if everything goes wrong, we'll still be telling horny stories in the burned-out irradiated ruins, and I really love that for us.

* The worst use case for AI is anything having to do with war or police or surveillance, obviously. The immediate case for abolition is that this is used against Black and Brown people to kill them. For that reason alone, it's ethically justifiable to build a supervillain-sized magnet and take it to any data centre in your vicinity.

** To be clear, AI used to detect cancer is not the same as LLMs, and anyone trying to convince you of this doesn't want to cure cancer, they want to get every journalist fired so that the Nazi App is state media.

***  This is because capitalism does not in fact work the way they teach in business school, where companies are required to turn a profit. Companies like Uber run at a loss. Uber has never made money. It just drives the cabs out of business and defunds public transit, so you're now reliant on Uber and will eventually pay anything for the service.

† All of them looked like bad, slightly thirsty knockoffs of Coraline. This was a few weeks ago, so that aged like sour milk.

welp

Jan. 13th, 2025 05:59 pm
sabotabby: (furiosa)
I am practicing self-care by not reading the Neil Gaiman article. Guy's a piece of shit. I don't need details, I don't think.
sabotabby: (books!)
I attended the 2024 Solarpunk Conference—virtual, bless their hearts—and it was quite good, actually? A lot of the folks involved in solarpunk are wicked cool and smart and I love the art, and it's unfortunate that I don't tend to vibe with a lot of the literature. But it turned out to be much better than expected.

The highlight was the keynote speech from Starhawk. I have mixed feelings about Starhawk, and I had mixed feelings about the talk, because it involved visualization (several bits of the conference involved visualization) and visualization exercises tend to be very bad for me. But besides that it was really fascinating, even where I disagreed with her.

The biggest thing though, was that I read The Fifth Sacred Thing when I was a teenager, and it had a massive influence on my writing, both positive and negative. There's a degree to which much of what I write is in reaction to it. In particular, the thing that has always bothered me was spoilers for a book that's 30 years old )

Other people of interest there: The guy who invented Glaze and the guy who projected "Space Karen" on the Tesla headquarters when Elon Musk bought Twitter. I am never fannish about normal people.

At any rate, the conversation was overall very interesting and inspiring. I left early (only so much virtual con I can tolerate) and sadly missed the "Fistfights In Utopia" panel, but also I apparently missed a bit where everyone there hates Kim Stanley Robinson, who I really like, so maybe it's just as well.
sabotabby: (books!)
 Today's Podcast Friday is about the podcast Rite Gud.

Goddamn I love this podcast. I'm still catching up on back episodes but every one I've listened to is hilarious, insightful, and genuinely useful as both a sci-fi/fantasy reader and as a writer. You can probably click on any of them and if you like the title, you'll probably get a lot out of it. But of course the episode that you should listen to, if you choose one, is Squeecore, which launched them into The Discourse.

(If you're not a podcast person, you can read a transcript.)

"Squeecore" features host Raquel S. Benedict and JR from the Podhand, discussing what they argue is the predominant literary movement in speculative fiction. It's the thing I've been dubbing the YA-ification of genre fiction, though I will admit that Squeecore is much more catchy. The thesis is that a lot of SFF these days...kind of sucks? Even as it's theoretically more diverse, it's become more limited in terms of tonal and emotional range and particularly in terms of the class composition of writers. There's an unwillingness to deal with messy emotions and characters, a safety, and a liberalism (or, as the podcast asserts, a neoliberalism even while the authors are overwhelmingly left-wing). Particularly in short stories, there's an overriding moralism, as if readers can't be trusted to pick out nuance, and a narrowing of allowable outcomes and experiences.

This episode is a live hand grenade dropped into the conversation. It caused. So. Much. Drama. on Twitter, with a load of authors I really enjoy weighing in. Raquel got all kinds of hate (JR less so, because he's not a woman on the internet). They did a followup episode, "The Squee-quel", which talks about the backlash and expands on some of the ideas in the first one. 

Now, while there are positions on both sides of the debate that I respect, I do come down on the side of "this is a thing and I don't like it"—I've had this itch with so much of genre fiction that touches dark issues but doesn't really come to grips with the darkness. "Squeecore" is a Rorschach test in many ways—Raquel and JR don't name a lot of authors, but Scalzi and Wendig are in there, Joss Whedon carries a lot of the blame, and they assert that the problem is more prevalent in short fiction than in novels. Personally I was thinking of books like A Memory Called Empire and Victories Greater than Death where the central conceit in both cases involves a young lesbian who is happy to her memories overwritten by a different personality and is cool with it and we're supposed to be happy for her if it works. And everyone loses their mind over these books because yay representation uwu smol bean, etc. I also think that a lot of the prose is flat. Which is not a new problem in SFF—the Golden Age that everyone on the right of these debates romanticizes is practically unreadable—but it's a particular type of flatness that I associate with YA and it speaks to a failure of imagination and innovation in the genre. It's why when I read someone like Silvia Moreno-Garcia (who also weighed in on the debate, on the side that I agree with), I absolutely lose my shit because she clearly rejects a sharp division between literary fiction and genre fiction and proves that you can absolutely write a book about vampires or magic and not have it be a quippy, dialogue-heavy, barren story that seems written purely to be adapted for screen.

It's been a long time since the Sad Puppies (whose spectre is, of course, raised by this discourse) and I think SFF ought to be mature enough to have these debates.

Anyway, as a proponent of dense, messy fiction I really enjoyed this challenge and I just want to talk about it forever.
sabotabby: (books!)
[personal profile] radiantfracture made a storytelling game, and it is an amazing storytelling game, and we made a story together that amused me to the degree that I had to share.

the rules )

the story )
sabotabby: (books!)
Just Finished: Notes From an Apocalypse: A Personal Journey to the End of the World and Back by Mark O'Connell. I loved this one. It was funny and poignant and relevant to my interests. As I probably said last week, I found it a surreal read, as it was published this year but before our Actual Apocalypse, and it's mainly about reactions to climate change. Which is, of course, still the looming Big One—even more so this week, with the "you have six months" warning—but reading about people preparing for the Wrong Apocalypse is weird. O'Connell is a great writer, weaving in exposés of mostly terrible people with his own reflections on bringing children into this doomed world. 

Currently reading: The Strange Case of the Alchemist's Daughter by Theodora Goss. This is a Victorian public domain horror mashup about the daughters of various literary characters. Mary Jekyll is destitute after the deaths of her parents, but going through her mother's accounting, she discovers Diana Hyde, her maybe-sister, in a Magdalene home. They're drawn into a murder investigation alongside Holmes and Watson. None of this is particularly novel except that it's really well written, in a po-mo framework that has interjections by the characters and author. and also it seems to be along the lines of "badass women getting their lives back from the shitty fathers who ruined them," which is quite relevant to my interests. Very fun so far.

Finally, on a personal note tangentially related to books: I have assembled all of mine into a Google Drive folder in some semblance of order. I would like some people to read it. If you have any interest in reading a 350-page messy sprawl about dysfunctional wizards, Canadian politics, and the apocalypse (but not the one we're living through right now—it has magic and more tentacles), drop me a PM or comment with your email address and I'll send you a link. But, like, be gentle because also I'm really scared to have people look at it.

The 19A0s

Jan. 15th, 2013 07:01 am
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (doomsday)
The lost decade theory is really conceptually up my alley (even if it means that I'm 43, heh) and now I want to write something set in the 19A0s, even if I don't much care for the art I've seen so far.

Have people done this already? Is it a Thing that no one told me about?
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (doomsday)
New Year's resolutions are stupid, and no one ever manages to fulfill any of them, but I actually have a few this time around.

1. Say "no." Or stall.

The vast majority of my stress comes from being a people-pleaser and feeling the need to agree to things I shouldn't do just to avoid conflict. I need to cut that shit out.

2. Do actual politics.

In my mad scramble to be perfect at everything, I've really let my activism slide. Blogging and "creating change in the classroom" do not count. I'm going to make an effort to actually attend meetings and demos. Fight the man!

3. Go to yoga every week.

I hate any sort of physical activity that isn't hiking or swimming, but admittedly, yoga does help, and I'm not able to just neglect my health anymore.

4. Make my blog more accessible.

I mentioned this earlier, and it's by far the most pragmatic resolution I've ever made. Transcripts if possible, otherwise decent descriptions, of any video I post, alt-tags for every image.

5. Finish the bloody documentary.

I totally dropped the ball on it because of school and because I don't know what I'm doing. But it needs to get done of the angst of letting people down will eat me alive.

6. Finish the comic.

At least the script-writing part. I can't do anything about the art other than cheerlead from the sidelines. It's 1/3 done, which tends to be the point at which I abandon writing projects, but at least I know more or less where it's going this time.

Anyway, New Year's is depressing as all hell, but there is an exciting party tonight and I am off to make cheesecake pops.

This post is public so you can all hold me to it.
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (glenn beck)
I guess everyone has seen this video of Glenn Beck trying to explain Operation Payback to his viewing audience:



[Sorry, I can't find a transcript. I am going to do my best to post transcripts for any video I post; consider it a New Year's resolution.]

The thing that gets me, beyond that Glenn Beck has not heard of D&D, is that the entire narrative framework here is so over-the-top. I mean, just look at the players: Assange (Chaotic Neutral*, and ripped right from the pages of the Millennium Trilogy), Bradley Manning (Lawful Good turned Chaotic Good), 4chan (Chaotic Neutral turning into Chaotic Good before our eyes), and Beck (Lawful Evil. I want to say Chaotic Evil but his utter irrationality is not actually relevant in this particular conflict.) The conflict here is at a global level, a life-and-death struggle, both for individuals and for nations. But at the same time, let's admit it, it's a bit cartoonish, you know?

Meanwhile, just outside the centre of the empire, my life is pretty stable, so it makes reading the news a bit surreal. Everything we conspiracy theorists on the left have speculated was true actually is, everyone is finding out about it, and—like I've always said about the conspiracy narrative—not doing anything about it.

I just read one of those insufferable books about the future (The Pirate's Dilemma by Matt Mason), which seems hilariously outdated less than three years after its publication. It predicts a hypercapitalist libertarian utopia of youth nanocultures that will somehow result in a fairer, more just world. I think the idea of nanocultures has actually come and gone. Meanwhile, I edited a book last weekend that started out as a grim dystopia marked by paranoia and omnipresent surveillance, and it seemed less like a cautionary tale and more like a story about present-day London.

The things we thought were kind of silly two years ago are accepted fixtures of reality now. Think of Bruce Schneier's TSA contests; many of the hilarious security measures that readers proposed are now in place in American airports. Howard Beale's sociopathic clone is allowed on TV to rant, and, like his less-colourful fictional counterpart, is ridiculously popular amongst the sorts of people who still watch things on the TV.

Goddamn it, I know I've made this complaint before, but won't someone think of the near-future dystopic fiction writers? We can't write that fast.

* He'd get a promotion to Chaotic Good were it not for the rape accusations. It is totally possible to be a hero in one area and a villain in another. I mean, Gandhi slept naked with 13-year-old girls and was penpals with Hitler.

Cojones

Dec. 12th, 2010 07:22 pm
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (fuck patriarchy)
As a second-year undergrad, I spent a considerable amount of time apartment-hunting. One of the many places I investigated was a shitty hovel at Spadina and Dupont. It was a basement, and too small for me and my then-prospective roommate, but there was a painting on the wall that gave me pause. It was a white canvas covered with black writing. In even, block letters, it read: "I want to be William S. Burroughs. I want to be Tom Waits. I want to be Hunter S. Thompson. I want to be Ernest Hemingway. I want to be Jack Kerouac." And so on. I was far more interested in the painting, and the sentiment, than in the apartment itself. It seemed to sum up the totality of my 20-year-old existence.

Only later did it occur to me that all of the people to which I, and the unknown artist, aspired to be were male, and nearly all white, and, furthermore, suggested a certain type of masculinity. Kind of odd, as I've always identified as female, and more towards the femme end of the spectrum if I have to pick an end. But much of what I admire—of course, very much influenced by a patriarchal culture—is considered traditionally masculine. I like to wear dresses, but preferably paired with Docs. I'm a teacher, but I teach tech, dammit. I clean up well, but I can't be arsed to wax and pluck and worry about makeup. Tools are rad. I like sci-fi. I don't watch what I eat when I'm on a date. I only read women's magazines to rail about the sexist stereotypes in them. I like action movies and not romantic comedies. I'm a beer woman on a champagne budget.*

This isn't self-hate, or anti-feminism. Well, I mean, part of it is that I consider myself a Serious Person, and the things that our culture marks as Serious are male things. (Action movies are just as silly as romantic comedies, but one is marginally more respectable. It is fine to be obsessed with sports, but not with shopping.) Part of it is that I went through a phase of liking certain literature from an era where women were not free to have adventures, a phase I was only cured of upon reading the autobiography of Kerouac's neglected daughter. But I think quite a bit of it is that the skills and interests coded as masculine tend to be practical and public, while those coded as feminism (cooking and crafting aside, and cooking can be coded as masculine) tend to be private and time-consuming without a lot of pay-off.

That brings me to [livejournal.com profile] dimethirwen's awesome post about Esquire articles about things men should know, and how there ought to be a list of things people should know. I grew up watching a lot of Bond movies (don't ask) and was left with the lingering sense that it's important to be a great shot, bluff in poker, and know your drinks. And wire your own lights, which I can do and Bond never did to my knowledge.

I think I'm rambling a bit, but what I take from the articles [livejournal.com profile] dimethirwen linked to, and the painting that caught my eye a decade ago, is that my relationship with independent and rebellious masculinity is, well, slightly complicated. I mean, I identify with and write these hyper-masculine characters (male and female; everyone's a badass), but cojones are not the only marker of strength. I suppose my ideal of both masculinity and femininity ends in the same place—to paraphrase a macho revolutionary, to "endure without ever losing tenderness."

Which is to say that we should all probably know how to wield a hammer and also to hem pants, but Esquire is still bloody ridiculous. Skinning an animal? I doubt your average Esquire reader is capable enough to get off his couch and buy a burger from a supermarket.

Anyway. What traits or skills of traditional masculinity or traditional femininity would your enlightened, progressive self like to see preserved?

* Richard Brautigan being yet another icon of rebellious masculinity.
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (march)
Between marking and freelance work—let's be honest, I was utterly procrastinating, long past the point of being productive—I finally caught up with the latest season of Sarah Jane Adventures. And found myself relating to children's TV far more than I should.

The thing is, activists on telly are usually portrayed as either one-note earnest martyrs for the cause (not that we don't know people like that, am I right?) or laughable strawpeople, and the latest SJA episode was most decidedly Not That. And despite it being not the best episode ever in terms of narrative, it hit home for me emotionally in a way that I feel the need to babble about.

spoilers )

The other thing I enjoyed yesterday was the latest installment of Slacktivist's Left Behind reviews. I mean, the posts are always good, but the comments are the big exception to Don't Read the Comments. People have started writing fanfiction. Or, anti-fanfiction, I guess. Basically, ficlets that are Left Behind if it were any good at all: fleshing out stereotypical side characters, calculating a functional resistance, what the disappearances would look like from a Muslim point of view (then, later, a Norse pagan point of view and a Cthulhu-cultist's point of view. The latter had me in stitches.). It's really enjoyable fiction that I want to see made into an actual novel.
sabotabby: (books!)
From [livejournal.com profile] ayoub, with a minor alteration:

Ask any of the characters I've written for advice, and they will provide it. Your problems or your fictional characters' problems are both welcome. Management is not responsible for the results of following said advice.

Since most of you probably haven't read any of my ahem fiction, feel free to ask for advice and I will select the most appropriate character to answer.
sabotabby: (books!)
From [livejournal.com profile] ayoub, with a minor alteration:

Ask any of the characters I've written for advice, and they will provide it. Your problems or your fictional characters' problems are both welcome. Management is not responsible for the results of following said advice.

Since most of you probably haven't read any of my ahem fiction, feel free to ask for advice and I will select the most appropriate character to answer.
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (racist!)
It's too late for me to weigh in, even if I wanted to, and really, I don't want to beyond what I've left in comments in other people's LJs.

However. I am trying to pick up the Novel Of Doom again*. Not that I envision becoming a famous bestselling author or anything like that, but I have books in me that shall, I hope, one day come out. Not to mention what must be at least several books worth of blogulation—I do seem to write an awful lot of stuff.

All of this is to say, dear friends, that if at any time it appears that I'm not wearing pants, I'd much rather know than not. You'd tell me, right?

* I mean, seriously. It is halfway done, at least. I know how it ends. I also pretty much know what happens in the middle, and my only excuse for not having finished it a year ago is that I haven't been in the correct frame of mind to write it.
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (Default)
It's too late for me to weigh in, even if I wanted to, and really, I don't want to beyond what I've left in comments in other people's LJs.

However. I am trying to pick up the Novel Of Doom again*. Not that I envision becoming a famous bestselling author or anything like that, but I have books in me that shall, I hope, one day come out. Not to mention what must be at least several books worth of blogulation—I do seem to write an awful lot of stuff.

All of this is to say, dear friends, that if at any time it appears that I'm not wearing pants, I'd much rather know than not. You'd tell me, right?

* I mean, seriously. It is halfway done, at least. I know how it ends. I also pretty much know what happens in the middle, and my only excuse for not having finished it a year ago is that I haven't been in the correct frame of mind to write it.
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (type something dirty)
Hah, no posts all weekend and now two from me in one day. [livejournal.com profile] caudelac picked up a meme that is not the Other Meme that is going around and that I keep promising people I'll post.

Anyway, this meme is to describe the sorts of stories one keeps telling*. Which is intriguing, so I'll play:

The stories I tell are always love stories of a sort. When I was much younger, a much older friend of mine told me that all songs are really love songs; all of my stories are really love stories. Not necessarily love stories between two people (I think that Elephant on a String, which I'm increasingly unlikely to finish, is mostly a love story between the characters and their city.)

Speaking of which, I do a lot of the city as a character. It's something I love to read about.

The human romances I write are nearly always dysfunctional. I have an unfortunate tendency to write about women trying to love men who don't really deserve them; it's a habit that I've tried to break as of late. But beyond that, I'm incapable of writing a straightforward sex scene—when I do write them, they are always awkward or violent or both. I think I have a better sex life than any of the characters I write about so it's largely not from personal experience; it's more that I find awesome sex scenes boring and embarrassing to write, so I'd rather make something go wrong.

Father-daughter relationships ([livejournal.com profile] sabotabby has daddy issues, don't ya know?). In stories where family doesn't play a big role (like Elephant, where no one has a family for some reason) there's still usually some strange tension between a younger woman and an older father-substitute. The YA steampunk thing I'm writing is really bad for that. It's also the opposite of my sex scene thing—the father-daughter relationships tend to turn out better than my actual one did.

Apocalypses. I think this is actually a big fascist streak in me. But I like to write stories about massive disasters and people picking up the pieces afterward. It's fun to explode the world.

Hidden agendas and double-crossing. I noticed that both Elephant and Anesthesia, (co-written with [livejournal.com profile] annaotto) had as major plot points characters who had, at some point, appeared to betray their own ideals. It's not a coincidence how much both of us love books like Vonnegut's Mother Night.

Conscious use of clichés. Elephant is a Western. The YA steampunk story is a fantasy-quest-bildungsroman. The play I wrote when I was 17 featured stock characters from various movie genres, and it has a hilariously melodramatic romance to boot. I've always liked dicking with people's expectations.

In the last decade or so, I've been incapable of writing anything that doesn't make some sort of political reference. Both of the big things I'm (supposed to be) working on now are explicit; Elephant is about a revolution, the YA thing is about a clash of two engineered utopian cultures. That's also something I'm trying to get more subtle about.

Hmm. I'm sure there's more. Unless there's a really good reason (like it's a story primarily about gay men), my stories always pass the Bechdel Rule. It's not even something I do consciously anymore.

Conversely, my favourite sort of story to read is essentially "bookish girl falls into a whole, winds up in magical world."

* I do write a fair bit but I've barely shared any of it since I was a teenager. I think with so many amazing writers on my friends list, I'm slightly intimidated to blog about my unlikely-to-ever-get-published blather. This from someone who journals rather personal things almost every day.
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (Default)
Hah, no posts all weekend and now two from me in one day. [livejournal.com profile] caudelac picked up a meme that is not the Other Meme that is going around and that I keep promising people I'll post.

Anyway, this meme is to describe the sorts of stories one keeps telling*. Which is intriguing, so I'll play:

The stories I tell are always love stories of a sort. When I was much younger, a much older friend of mine told me that all songs are really love songs; all of my stories are really love stories. Not necessarily love stories between two people (I think that Elephant on a String, which I'm increasingly unlikely to finish, is mostly a love story between the characters and their city.)

Speaking of which, I do a lot of the city as a character. It's something I love to read about.

The human romances I write are nearly always dysfunctional. I have an unfortunate tendency to write about women trying to love men who don't really deserve them; it's a habit that I've tried to break as of late. But beyond that, I'm incapable of writing a straightforward sex scene—when I do write them, they are always awkward or violent or both. I think I have a better sex life than any of the characters I write about so it's largely not from personal experience; it's more that I find awesome sex scenes boring and embarrassing to write, so I'd rather make something go wrong.

Father-daughter relationships ([livejournal.com profile] sabotabby has daddy issues, don't ya know?). In stories where family doesn't play a big role (like Elephant, where no one has a family for some reason) there's still usually some strange tension between a younger woman and an older father-substitute. The YA steampunk thing I'm writing is really bad for that. It's also the opposite of my sex scene thing—the father-daughter relationships tend to turn out better than my actual one did.

Apocalypses. I think this is actually a big fascist streak in me. But I like to write stories about massive disasters and people picking up the pieces afterward. It's fun to explode the world.

Hidden agendas and double-crossing. I noticed that both Elephant and Anesthesia, (co-written with [livejournal.com profile] annaotto) had as major plot points characters who had, at some point, appeared to betray their own ideals. It's not a coincidence how much both of us love books like Vonnegut's Mother Night.

Conscious use of clichés. Elephant is a Western. The YA steampunk story is a fantasy-quest-bildungsroman. The play I wrote when I was 17 featured stock characters from various movie genres, and it has a hilariously melodramatic romance to boot. I've always liked dicking with people's expectations.

In the last decade or so, I've been incapable of writing anything that doesn't make some sort of political reference. Both of the big things I'm (supposed to be) working on now are explicit; Elephant is about a revolution, the YA thing is about a clash of two engineered utopian cultures. That's also something I'm trying to get more subtle about.

Hmm. I'm sure there's more. Unless there's a really good reason (like it's a story primarily about gay men), my stories always pass the Bechdel Rule. It's not even something I do consciously anymore.

Conversely, my favourite sort of story to read is essentially "bookish girl falls into a whole, winds up in magical world."

* I do write a fair bit but I've barely shared any of it since I was a teenager. I think with so many amazing writers on my friends list, I'm slightly intimidated to blog about my unlikely-to-ever-get-published blather. This from someone who journals rather personal things almost every day.
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (fridge)
Note to self:

Even when working hard, kimchi is not a proper dinner.

Yes, even though it's tastier than dinner would be. And yes, even though my fortune cookie said:

For a good cause, wrongdoing may be virtuous.


In other news, while I haven't finished it and must withhold judgment until such time as I do, Five Fists of Science may very well be the best comic book written by anyone ever.


Finally, see what gay marriage leads to?
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (Default)
Note to self:

Even when working hard, kimchi is not a proper dinner.

Yes, even though it's tastier than dinner would be. And yes, even though my fortune cookie said:

For a good cause, wrongdoing may be virtuous.


In other news, while I haven't finished it and must withhold judgment until such time as I do, Five Fists of Science may very well be the best comic book written by anyone ever.


Finally, see what gay marriage leads to?
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (sleep of reason/goya/wouldprefernot2)
I was playing around in Google Maps, looking at my neighbourhood. I zoomed in. You could see the street view in photos, except instead of lush, tree-lined streets, there was a desert wasteland. Dust blew across pieces of debris and human skulls.

I rushed to the window to look outside, and then I woke up.



On another note, why is there flavoured mayonnaise? It's bad enough that there's regular mayonnaise; flavoured mayonnaise just makes me even more misanthropic. Still, I managed to work it into a story I'm writing.

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